My fiance of 3 years broke up with me, girl laments

My fiance of 3 years broke up with me, girl lamentsFrom a female blog reader:

Please keep me anonymous… I am broken and honestly I don’t know how to pick up the pieces of who i am. My fiance called off our wedding and broke up with me with just very flimsy excuses. Three years of my life wasted. Three years spent loving this man honestly, been loyal to him and loving his family like mine. All I do is cry night and day, I never cheated, not even once. I’ve been asking myself what’s the reward for being a good girl? What’s the point of being loyal and faithful? What do you get for loving honestly and truthfully. And stupid thing is despite everything my heart won’t stop loving him or longing for him. I just feel so pathetic and dumb. I have tried and tried to get him to see reason and let’s work things out but he refused and blocked me everywhere and won’t pick my calls also. I’m wondering where to start from or even how to start healing. I just want the pain to stop, I just want the hurt to stop. I want the tears to stop gushing. I am just stupid in love with a man who doesn’t want me anymore. I can’t even say I’ll be fine cos I’m not sure. This man was my best friend, my lover my everything. I’m not even the friend type so this is so hard for me. My soul is tired and weary. I’m even sick also. I’m not asking for advice or anything, just needed to let my feelings out. Thank you