I’m considering suicide – blog reader laments

I'm considering suicide - blog reader laments

From a female blog reader who needs urgent advice:

Firstly, I would love to say that am extremely grateful for this platform and deeply appreciate the Admin for the continous effort. God bless!! My story is about me. I’m a 30 yr old female based in the US,I’m not married, no kids, I am quite established but I struggle everyday with depression. To the world, I am one of the happiest people you will meet. My sense of humour is off the charts, I’m one of those that captivates people in conversations but deep down I’m just putting up appearances so that everyone thinks I’m strong and “I’ve got this!” Oh, if they only knew! I live in the DMV area so I commute to the District and every time I cross the bridge I always have the urge to drive off it and end it all. I just want to rest, I am tired! I know people will say I’m ungrateful that I’ve got a life and I want to end it or I need to pray and go for deliverance, I have done all that. I have been through so much that I now believe God helps only those that he wants to. I’m broken and I don’t know how to pick myself up. Talking to friends/family is a NO NO cos I’ll be judged and that’s not what I need now. I need constructive opinions on how I can lift my spirits. It may sound silly to many but this is a real burden to me. Thanks.