I acted up but now I want to apologize

I acted up but now I want to apologize

From a female blog reader:

Finally moved to his town last year and we got really close.. am just a psycho, I started acting weird and telling him that i was moving on and I will get someoneelse(I got insecured ).. whenever he calls me to talk about us, I will just sleep off.. I was high on Xmas day and I decided to make things right and really talk but I found out he had already blocked me on whatsapp and from calling him. With my highness eyes, I sent him the insult of his life and killed his ego (told him how horrible he was on bed, how he cums too fast and how i don’t like the shape of his d&**). Now my eyes have cleared and am really sorry but he doesnt reply my messages, he unfriend me on Facebook and snapchat. He has also deleted his IG account cos i blocked him and I can’t enter his estate if he doesn’t invite me.. I love him so much and am sorry.. please how do