I accidentally slept with another guy after quarrelling with my boyfriend

I accidentally slept with another guy after quarrelling with my boyfriend

I need everyone including the self righteous ones to advice me on this. I broke up with my boyfriend somewhat around April due to my foolishness and gullibility. so to the point, there’s this guy that my ex boyfriend used to complain about then but due to his frequent complaints, I tagged him as someone with low self esteem cos i explained to him countless times dat we are just friends. After I broke up with my boyfriend, i found solace in ds other guy..we’ll talk, go out to eat n stuff…until one day dat we went to new buka in my school and i drank to stupor. This guy took me to his place and had sex with me…he even had the guts to tell me the following day. I was mad at d boy and we stopped talking. i hated myself those times and i can’t help but remember d ugly incident. 3 days later, my boyfriend’s mother called to ask why I decided to leave her son cos we were formal n stuff. I couldn’t find a reasonable excuse to give her though i already made up my mind to get back with my boyfriend but because of what happened with d other guy i thought was my friend, I just had to lie to d mother…. my boyfriend called, I could not even pick it…he left Lagos to see me where i was still i avoided him. Later i told him why i avoided him n he did not find it funny…he told me to forget about him straight up. Now he has traveled out of the country and i miss him so much… i still love him but the incident with the other guy has really affected me and is still affecting me cos i can’t even bring myself to the thought of dating another guy..though i get advances from guys… I’m sorry for d long post but i have to let it all out. I’ll be in the comments please.